2009,
This year has had its ups and downs just like any other year! This year was full of fun and sometimes full of sadness, but we made it through it all.
My Angel turned 8, We celebrated in style with a red carpet event party! She had family and her friends from school join us... It was soooo much fun!
My Spitfire turned 6, we celebrated her day with a pool party at a local hotel. It was a lot of fun... until her friend fell in without her floaties and I jumped in fully dressed ( shoes and all) and ruined my cell phone that was in my pocket, LOL! It is funny to think about now, but boy was it scary at first. Her friend was just fine and we enjoyed the rest of her party!
Wild Man turned 3, we celebrated his day at home in the back yard! We had all of our family and friends come over. We had a Taco bar and lots of goodies :)
My Sunshine turned 1, we celebrated this very special birthday at my Mom's Clubhouse! It was a very rocky party, meaning some lady was there causing a lot of issues with us and saying we had no right to be there and we needed to cancel our party! Needless to say she left and we ended up having a great party to celebrate my baby girl's 1st birthday!
We went on vacation this year with my sister/brother in law and had the best time! It was full of laughs, relaxation, a little yelling (lol) and lots of food! We went to Ft. Lauderdale, FL! This was our first vacation without J's parents and it was a little different, but we still had a wonderful time! I can't wait until next years vacation :)
My mom treated the kids and I to a mini vacation down in Brown County! We stayed at The Brown County Inn for 3 days. My cousin and her 2 boys went and so did Granni! It was so fun to swim and play all day. We girls stayed up until like 2am chatting and it was very enjoyable!
The girls played Softball for the first year. (Miss Spitfire had played baseball in the past) My Angel played, but hated every minute of it. My Spitfire loved every second of playing and realized how good she is. She is counting down the days until she is in 2nd grade and can play basketball as well :)
My mom and I had a couple girls nights and wow I love that woman! She is so much fun and so loving! She is always there to make sure I am able to have a good time! With her, I always have a good time! I love you Mom!
We also had a couple of fun times at Uncle D's and Aunt S's house this summer! They know how to throw a party and I LOVE it! I enjoy playing volleyball and dancing my butt off into the wee hours of the night! Tons of fun!
This year wasn't all laughs and fun, we said goodbye to a dear friend, Dana, this summer! His funeral was sad, but we celebrated his life at his parents house and we enjoyed the company while doing so! He is with God, but he will always be missed here!
2009 was honestly a great year, but I am so ready to see what 2010 brings my family and I!!! J and I will be ringing in the New Year at my sister/brother in laws and the kids will be celebrating with Nana!
GOODBYE 2009, you were awesome, but I am ready to see what's in store for the year ahead!
May God Bless all of you and keep you safe this New Years Eve!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Another Wonderful Christmas
Christmas 09 was just amazing! I do apologize I don't have any pics to put up yet ( still can't find the wonderful cord to my camera).
We started our festivities on Christmas Eve Eve! We took the kids and J's Aunt to see Alvin and the Chipmunks and it was such a cute movie. We all enjoyed oursleves and enjoyed seeing J's Aunt who lives in D.C.! It was the prefect way to start the festivities!!! We then had Christmas Eve at my Sister and Brother in laws house and it was soooo much fun! We hung out, ate and opened a gazillion presents! It was so many gifts that it seemed like Santa had come a night early. My van was loaded down!!!!
We then went home to straighten up and find places to put all of their new toys. We opened gifts from each other and gifts from Papaw J ( My dad)that he sent up to the kiddies for Christmas! We then set out our cookies, milk and we even sprinkled reindeer food on the lawn :) We tucked everyone into bed and it of course took everyone an hour or 2 to really fall asleep! The anticipation and excitement was too much for us to go to sleep, lol :)
We woke up Christmas morning at 7:40am to open gifts! My little Sunshine was even into it this year, she ran straight from her room to her new kitchen Santa left out ( it was so unexpected it was adorable)!!! I played Santa this year, it took us about an hour to open all presents! We had cinnamon rolls for breakfast... well and we had lots of chocolate that Santa left too! I forgot to buy Jesus' birthday cake this year so we sang Happy Birthday to him and then ate our cinnamon rolls! I am sure he didn't mind what we ate, since I made sure my kids know the real reason for such a great day! It was a truly a GREAT day... My brother and his fiance joined us Christmas morning. We exchanged gifts and they played with the kiddos! It was so enjoyable! This will probably be the last Christmas that my brother is home. He is joining the Air Force, so the fact that he came over was very special to us!!!!
We had a big Christmas Dinner at my Mother / Father in laws and man was it GOOD!!!! I hate enough to feed a small army, LOL! So many fun memories were made this year! We woke up the day after Christmas anticipating going to my moms for Christmas Brunch. Sadly my van wouldn't start and the 2 babies woke up with fevers :( It was a very rough start to what turned out to be a fabulous day! We made it to my beautiful Mom and Step Dads house a little late and to my surprise my Aunt and my cousin were there. I was so excited to see them because it had been awhile. The best gift of the whole year was seeing my Uncle ( who has cancer) peep around from the kitchen. I was so excited to see him and his beautiful wife!!! I of course hugged both of them! I sat by them to eat and I think I might have followed them from room to room the whole time ( stalker... I guess?!) I was just trying to eat up all of the time I had with them that morning! I am sure they were annoyed, but I honestly didn't even think about my goofy behavior until just now...oops! Sorry Uncle J and Aunt V!!!!! They know I am a big dork so I think it will all be ok! We ended up going home with a car full from there as well. It was a wonderful Christmas Brunch with my family!
We finished up Christmas of 09 at J's Grandma's House later that day! His Aunt was in from out of town and we always go over there when Christmas is over! We had a great time opening more gifts and chit chatting the whole time. The kids were winding down so we sadly couldn't stay there as long as we would have liked, but we had a great visit!
This Christmas was honestly the best Christmas we have ever had. Yes we got a ton of gifts, but even if we hadn't it would have still been the best. We were surrounded by family for 3 days straight and ate the best food we had all year! We also celebrated the birth of Jesus and recognized the day as a day for him and all he has done for us to be here! I say this a lot, but I am blessed beyond words! The Lord gave us such big and loving families and I couldn't be prouder to be apart of them all!
Hopefully I will get my pics up within the week, but it will be a posts in itself if I do!
We started our festivities on Christmas Eve Eve! We took the kids and J's Aunt to see Alvin and the Chipmunks and it was such a cute movie. We all enjoyed oursleves and enjoyed seeing J's Aunt who lives in D.C.! It was the prefect way to start the festivities!!! We then had Christmas Eve at my Sister and Brother in laws house and it was soooo much fun! We hung out, ate and opened a gazillion presents! It was so many gifts that it seemed like Santa had come a night early. My van was loaded down!!!!
We then went home to straighten up and find places to put all of their new toys. We opened gifts from each other and gifts from Papaw J ( My dad)that he sent up to the kiddies for Christmas! We then set out our cookies, milk and we even sprinkled reindeer food on the lawn :) We tucked everyone into bed and it of course took everyone an hour or 2 to really fall asleep! The anticipation and excitement was too much for us to go to sleep, lol :)
We woke up Christmas morning at 7:40am to open gifts! My little Sunshine was even into it this year, she ran straight from her room to her new kitchen Santa left out ( it was so unexpected it was adorable)!!! I played Santa this year, it took us about an hour to open all presents! We had cinnamon rolls for breakfast... well and we had lots of chocolate that Santa left too! I forgot to buy Jesus' birthday cake this year so we sang Happy Birthday to him and then ate our cinnamon rolls! I am sure he didn't mind what we ate, since I made sure my kids know the real reason for such a great day! It was a truly a GREAT day... My brother and his fiance joined us Christmas morning. We exchanged gifts and they played with the kiddos! It was so enjoyable! This will probably be the last Christmas that my brother is home. He is joining the Air Force, so the fact that he came over was very special to us!!!!
We had a big Christmas Dinner at my Mother / Father in laws and man was it GOOD!!!! I hate enough to feed a small army, LOL! So many fun memories were made this year! We woke up the day after Christmas anticipating going to my moms for Christmas Brunch. Sadly my van wouldn't start and the 2 babies woke up with fevers :( It was a very rough start to what turned out to be a fabulous day! We made it to my beautiful Mom and Step Dads house a little late and to my surprise my Aunt and my cousin were there. I was so excited to see them because it had been awhile. The best gift of the whole year was seeing my Uncle ( who has cancer) peep around from the kitchen. I was so excited to see him and his beautiful wife!!! I of course hugged both of them! I sat by them to eat and I think I might have followed them from room to room the whole time ( stalker... I guess?!) I was just trying to eat up all of the time I had with them that morning! I am sure they were annoyed, but I honestly didn't even think about my goofy behavior until just now...oops! Sorry Uncle J and Aunt V!!!!! They know I am a big dork so I think it will all be ok! We ended up going home with a car full from there as well. It was a wonderful Christmas Brunch with my family!
We finished up Christmas of 09 at J's Grandma's House later that day! His Aunt was in from out of town and we always go over there when Christmas is over! We had a great time opening more gifts and chit chatting the whole time. The kids were winding down so we sadly couldn't stay there as long as we would have liked, but we had a great visit!
This Christmas was honestly the best Christmas we have ever had. Yes we got a ton of gifts, but even if we hadn't it would have still been the best. We were surrounded by family for 3 days straight and ate the best food we had all year! We also celebrated the birth of Jesus and recognized the day as a day for him and all he has done for us to be here! I say this a lot, but I am blessed beyond words! The Lord gave us such big and loving families and I couldn't be prouder to be apart of them all!
Hopefully I will get my pics up within the week, but it will be a posts in itself if I do!
Monday, December 21, 2009
The crazy
I usually have posts of my life being so wonderful and happy... today is the crazy post!
My life as a mother...
First of all is great! I wouldn't trade it for the world, but today is a day I would love to trade! It is the first day of Christmas break. I was so anxious and excited to have my girls home with me everyday for 2 weeks. I wanted it to be fun and festive!
I warned my girls last night that today would be a day for nothing but cleaning. We have to get ready for Santa and all of his goodies and well it just wouldn't be Christmas if my house is a big mess (before Santa arrives). We all started out so well, picking everything up that was theirs out of each room. They then decided to ask to help more, I of course was not going to say no... that would make me a crazy woman, lol!!! My angel asked first if she could Windex all of the glass and windows. This led to them actually using cleaning supplies, in which to them is the best thing ever! It of course led into a big fight of who was getting to do more and who wasn't getting to do something the other was doing.
My little spitfire starting arguing and back talking to me and I was very upset with her so I sent her to her room. I had told the girls that their room could be the last thing we clean this week, but since she was being punished I told her she could get started on it. It did not go over well at all. It ended with a lot of yelling and crying. My Angel however today was on the emotional side, anything anyone said to her set her off. She was mad on minute and crying the next. This continued for the rest of the day into the night. My girls faught absolutely all day!!! I was so upset by this. This is not what I wanted out of our time together for the next 2 weeks.
I just tucked them into bed a little bit ago and in a nice calm voice told them how disappointed I was with how our day turned out. They both apologized to me ( which was very nice to hear), so I just told them they need to work things out or figure out a system where they can get along longer than 5 minutes or I am going to be a gray headed mom who is always yelling. I don't want that for them or myself. We all hugged and kissed goodnight! The girls laid in their beds completely quiet and I walked into the front room to my Wildman, who had taken every couch cushion off the couch and made a huge pile for him to jump into!!! This is a BIG no no in our house ( I have no idea why this bugs the living day lights out of me, but it sadly does)! So I told him he needed to put them back and he needed to go to bed. He of course cried so the girls came out to see what he was crying about. I told them he was going to bed and for some reason they thought they could get out of going to bed. They asked if they could stay up and I said (calmly) "no we all need our rest after a day like today"! I tucked Wildman into bed with him screaming and crying and both girls walked back into their rooms crying and saying how mean I am!
Ahhh the life of a mother, LOL!!! Needless to say I am wore out and not because I am tired, but because my stress level is on red! I am hoping tomorrow is a better day for all of us so we can enjoy this wonderful week :) Welcome to the craziness!!!!
My life as a mother...
First of all is great! I wouldn't trade it for the world, but today is a day I would love to trade! It is the first day of Christmas break. I was so anxious and excited to have my girls home with me everyday for 2 weeks. I wanted it to be fun and festive!
I warned my girls last night that today would be a day for nothing but cleaning. We have to get ready for Santa and all of his goodies and well it just wouldn't be Christmas if my house is a big mess (before Santa arrives). We all started out so well, picking everything up that was theirs out of each room. They then decided to ask to help more, I of course was not going to say no... that would make me a crazy woman, lol!!! My angel asked first if she could Windex all of the glass and windows. This led to them actually using cleaning supplies, in which to them is the best thing ever! It of course led into a big fight of who was getting to do more and who wasn't getting to do something the other was doing.
My little spitfire starting arguing and back talking to me and I was very upset with her so I sent her to her room. I had told the girls that their room could be the last thing we clean this week, but since she was being punished I told her she could get started on it. It did not go over well at all. It ended with a lot of yelling and crying. My Angel however today was on the emotional side, anything anyone said to her set her off. She was mad on minute and crying the next. This continued for the rest of the day into the night. My girls faught absolutely all day!!! I was so upset by this. This is not what I wanted out of our time together for the next 2 weeks.
I just tucked them into bed a little bit ago and in a nice calm voice told them how disappointed I was with how our day turned out. They both apologized to me ( which was very nice to hear), so I just told them they need to work things out or figure out a system where they can get along longer than 5 minutes or I am going to be a gray headed mom who is always yelling. I don't want that for them or myself. We all hugged and kissed goodnight! The girls laid in their beds completely quiet and I walked into the front room to my Wildman, who had taken every couch cushion off the couch and made a huge pile for him to jump into!!! This is a BIG no no in our house ( I have no idea why this bugs the living day lights out of me, but it sadly does)! So I told him he needed to put them back and he needed to go to bed. He of course cried so the girls came out to see what he was crying about. I told them he was going to bed and for some reason they thought they could get out of going to bed. They asked if they could stay up and I said (calmly) "no we all need our rest after a day like today"! I tucked Wildman into bed with him screaming and crying and both girls walked back into their rooms crying and saying how mean I am!
Ahhh the life of a mother, LOL!!! Needless to say I am wore out and not because I am tired, but because my stress level is on red! I am hoping tomorrow is a better day for all of us so we can enjoy this wonderful week :) Welcome to the craziness!!!!
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Christmas Wish
Christmas is 5 days from now and I am getting so anxious! I am anxious to see my kids' faces in the morning, to see family, to eat great food and sing to Happy Birthday to Jesus!
This year has been an amazing year for me! Nothing great or significant has happened except that I have a sense of peace about everything that happens in my life...good and bad! I believe everything good and bad is what God has planned for me. When times are hard I always just think of people who are worse off than me... that always puts it back in perspective for me! God will always give me what I need and he will never give me more than I can handle! He may not always give me what I want and I am happy to say I am ok with that :) This sentence alone brings me to the title of my post!
It is all too cheesy, but I wish more than anything God would grant us with a cure for the awful poison... known as cancer! My wonderful Uncle has been dealing with cancer for a couple of years now. I hear he is in good spirits and doing ok, but I know my family is full of worry, sadness and fear. I wish for my Uncle to feel good inside and out everyday. I wish for him to be able to walk into the doctors office and for them to say you are CURED. I wish for him to have the energy to live his life the way he used to. I wish for him to not have to endure one more second of radiation or chemo. I wish, I wish, I wish! I can wish all I want, but I don't think a genie is going to be popping out of a bottle anytime soon to grant me these! So I pray! I pray everyday for my Uncle, his children and my family. I pray for a Christmas miracle! Please join me in prayer for my Uncle... pray for his health to be restored, cancer to be gone, for the Lord to give them all the strength to deal with everything, for them to have faith in the Lords plan, for all of them to enjoy everyday they have with one another, for the Lord to carry all of the fears and worries!
I wish for my Uncles family that you all have a very Merry Christmas. I love you all and hope you know I am always thinking of you guys!
"And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven. Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective."
James 5:15-16
This year has been an amazing year for me! Nothing great or significant has happened except that I have a sense of peace about everything that happens in my life...good and bad! I believe everything good and bad is what God has planned for me. When times are hard I always just think of people who are worse off than me... that always puts it back in perspective for me! God will always give me what I need and he will never give me more than I can handle! He may not always give me what I want and I am happy to say I am ok with that :) This sentence alone brings me to the title of my post!
It is all too cheesy, but I wish more than anything God would grant us with a cure for the awful poison... known as cancer! My wonderful Uncle has been dealing with cancer for a couple of years now. I hear he is in good spirits and doing ok, but I know my family is full of worry, sadness and fear. I wish for my Uncle to feel good inside and out everyday. I wish for him to be able to walk into the doctors office and for them to say you are CURED. I wish for him to have the energy to live his life the way he used to. I wish for him to not have to endure one more second of radiation or chemo. I wish, I wish, I wish! I can wish all I want, but I don't think a genie is going to be popping out of a bottle anytime soon to grant me these! So I pray! I pray everyday for my Uncle, his children and my family. I pray for a Christmas miracle! Please join me in prayer for my Uncle... pray for his health to be restored, cancer to be gone, for the Lord to give them all the strength to deal with everything, for them to have faith in the Lords plan, for all of them to enjoy everyday they have with one another, for the Lord to carry all of the fears and worries!
I wish for my Uncles family that you all have a very Merry Christmas. I love you all and hope you know I am always thinking of you guys!
"And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven. Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective."
James 5:15-16
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
A day for us!!!
Today was a day filled with fun, laughs and the usual joking around we always do. I am referring to a day for just J and I!
We dropped the girls off to school, the little ones off at my Moms and we headed to the fair grounds! Today my kind hearted husband decided to join me in volunteering to help with The Salvation Army's Toy Shop. We helped fill the tables full of toys, sorted through games and went shopping for stocking stuffers! We spent over half the day together trying to brighten someone elses Christmas and it was so much FUN!
I love him! I love the fun we have when doing nothing or out doing something. He makes me smile and laugh all of the time. We have this very loving, but yet so disfunctional relationship!! One minute we are saying something so sweet and the next we are making fun of each other or seeing if we can hit one another while the other isn't anticipating it. Yes it can hurt, but it is always in fun! We bicker over the radio stations! I sing into whatever I can use as a microphone as loud and as goofy as I can while he is driving! We also fill up cups of cold water to dump on the other while in the shower, it is awful when it is me in the shower, but it is so fun to get him back! We laugh and always have a good time!!! We are full of jokes and that is what I love about us! Some may say we are weird or have a goofy relationship, but I say it is awesome!
This week he took off of work and I am thrilled to have him to myself today and tomorrow! 14 years together and we still have just as much fun as we did when we were dating! Our awesome kids have not slowed down our laughs or fun, they just make our time together that much more enjoyable! As crazy as we are together, God knew what he was doing when he put us together and I am thankful!
J, I love you more than you know! You make me smile everyday no matter my mood! You are my rock! I appreciate all you are and all you do for me and our family!!!! I think our family is AWESOME :)
FYI: to all who read this, I am sorry there aren't any pics of J in this blog, but he doesn't allow us to take or even dare post his picture! Maybe someday I can sneak some on here! For now you will have to invision, a very attractive, 6ft tall, green eyed, black haired man that I like to call my husband! lol :)
We dropped the girls off to school, the little ones off at my Moms and we headed to the fair grounds! Today my kind hearted husband decided to join me in volunteering to help with The Salvation Army's Toy Shop. We helped fill the tables full of toys, sorted through games and went shopping for stocking stuffers! We spent over half the day together trying to brighten someone elses Christmas and it was so much FUN!
I love him! I love the fun we have when doing nothing or out doing something. He makes me smile and laugh all of the time. We have this very loving, but yet so disfunctional relationship!! One minute we are saying something so sweet and the next we are making fun of each other or seeing if we can hit one another while the other isn't anticipating it. Yes it can hurt, but it is always in fun! We bicker over the radio stations! I sing into whatever I can use as a microphone as loud and as goofy as I can while he is driving! We also fill up cups of cold water to dump on the other while in the shower, it is awful when it is me in the shower, but it is so fun to get him back! We laugh and always have a good time!!! We are full of jokes and that is what I love about us! Some may say we are weird or have a goofy relationship, but I say it is awesome!
This week he took off of work and I am thrilled to have him to myself today and tomorrow! 14 years together and we still have just as much fun as we did when we were dating! Our awesome kids have not slowed down our laughs or fun, they just make our time together that much more enjoyable! As crazy as we are together, God knew what he was doing when he put us together and I am thankful!
J, I love you more than you know! You make me smile everyday no matter my mood! You are my rock! I appreciate all you are and all you do for me and our family!!!! I think our family is AWESOME :)
FYI: to all who read this, I am sorry there aren't any pics of J in this blog, but he doesn't allow us to take or even dare post his picture! Maybe someday I can sneak some on here! For now you will have to invision, a very attractive, 6ft tall, green eyed, black haired man that I like to call my husband! lol :)
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Officially Old
Today marks the day I found my first GRAY HAIR!!!!!!
I am so bummed by this! I was honestly not expecting to see one of these awful things until I was atleast 30. My grandma is 79 and doesn't have very much, so I was just hoping I would be like her in the gray hair department! Guess not!
I was just randomly checking my hair out in the entry way mirror while on the phone and saw this hair that looked like a fly away. It had a glare on it so I thought it was a highlighted piece of hair... until I got closer, it was the ugliest curly piece of hair on my head. Immediately I pulled it out and man it hurt! I pull crazy strands out all of the time and they never hurt, but that fabulous gray hair was dug in deep and was a bit of a tug with a little sting afterward!
My wonderful husband said they are going to spread like wild fires now... by the way thanks for the comforting words babe! :) I got to thinking though hasn't it been said that if you pull a gray hair out 20 something grays grow in it's place?! It makes me think of my high school choir director, Mrs. Noot! She had black hair with a gray streak in front... her skunk streak! I am going to have a skunk streak b/c I pulled the wonderful thing out! I am going to have to keep my hair updated in the color department from now on out, no more grays for me! Wishful thinking right?!
Well as I sit here as a 26 year old woman who is throwing herself a pity party, I now feel 50 or so b/c I am officially in the old ladies club with my fabulous gray hair :( No offense Mom, LOL!!!!! Love to all the old ladies out there with gray hair... I just wasn't ready to join the club is all!!!!
I am so bummed by this! I was honestly not expecting to see one of these awful things until I was atleast 30. My grandma is 79 and doesn't have very much, so I was just hoping I would be like her in the gray hair department! Guess not!
I was just randomly checking my hair out in the entry way mirror while on the phone and saw this hair that looked like a fly away. It had a glare on it so I thought it was a highlighted piece of hair... until I got closer, it was the ugliest curly piece of hair on my head. Immediately I pulled it out and man it hurt! I pull crazy strands out all of the time and they never hurt, but that fabulous gray hair was dug in deep and was a bit of a tug with a little sting afterward!
My wonderful husband said they are going to spread like wild fires now... by the way thanks for the comforting words babe! :) I got to thinking though hasn't it been said that if you pull a gray hair out 20 something grays grow in it's place?! It makes me think of my high school choir director, Mrs. Noot! She had black hair with a gray streak in front... her skunk streak! I am going to have a skunk streak b/c I pulled the wonderful thing out! I am going to have to keep my hair updated in the color department from now on out, no more grays for me! Wishful thinking right?!
Well as I sit here as a 26 year old woman who is throwing herself a pity party, I now feel 50 or so b/c I am officially in the old ladies club with my fabulous gray hair :( No offense Mom, LOL!!!!! Love to all the old ladies out there with gray hair... I just wasn't ready to join the club is all!!!!
Saturday, December 12, 2009
My Temporary Home
On my way home tonight I heard the song "Temporary Home" by Carrie Underwood. It is such a wonderful song and it got me to really thinking. It was a 35 minute drive home...so that was a lot of thinking for my little brain, I know! LOL
Seriously though, "temporary home" really meant nothing to me when I was little. Growing up I never thought of my home as a pit stop or a side street to my real Home I anxiously await on now! As a child I believed in God and Jesus Christ, but that was just it. I prayed when I needed a good grade, or not to get whipped to hard and even hoping to not get caught during certain times in my teen life. God was there for me every time I called upon him then and I still never put much thought into him or heaven ( as sad as that is).
Now as an adult my thought process and my Faith have grown so much. I don't just believe, I trust and LOVE my God and Jesus! Life has thrown me a few curve balls and sliders, but with God's forgiveness and abiding love, my life is wonderful!
My life to many is not the life they might choose, but for me it is the best! My temporary home is not filled with a lot furniture or things to make a home have that warm cozy feeling when you walk in ( it is filled with a ton of toys though, LOL) but it is filled with 4 amazing kids and my wonderful husband! My temporary home is not big, actually it is quite small! As much as I wish for a bigger home, it is still my home and it is filled with love. I can't thank the Lord enough for this amazing temporary home. I live in this place we call home, but I know this is nothing compared to the amazing home I someday will live in. I long for this place and I long for all of my family and friends to be there with me!
I know there is a song out there that says something like wanting to go to Heaven but I don't wanna go now ( I think it is Kenney Chessney who sings it). I know a lot of people probably feel this way, but knowing the pain and suffering that occurs here during a persons life... I WANNA go now. I don't want to ever feel that pain or suffering. I want to see the streets of Gold, the Pearly Gate and most of all the Lord in his throne waiting on me and my family to join in the happiness that fills Heaven! I can only imagine what it truly looks and feels like and I am sure it is beyond any part of my imagination!!!!
I pray the Lord comes soon...
Seriously though, "temporary home" really meant nothing to me when I was little. Growing up I never thought of my home as a pit stop or a side street to my real Home I anxiously await on now! As a child I believed in God and Jesus Christ, but that was just it. I prayed when I needed a good grade, or not to get whipped to hard and even hoping to not get caught during certain times in my teen life. God was there for me every time I called upon him then and I still never put much thought into him or heaven ( as sad as that is).
Now as an adult my thought process and my Faith have grown so much. I don't just believe, I trust and LOVE my God and Jesus! Life has thrown me a few curve balls and sliders, but with God's forgiveness and abiding love, my life is wonderful!
My life to many is not the life they might choose, but for me it is the best! My temporary home is not filled with a lot furniture or things to make a home have that warm cozy feeling when you walk in ( it is filled with a ton of toys though, LOL) but it is filled with 4 amazing kids and my wonderful husband! My temporary home is not big, actually it is quite small! As much as I wish for a bigger home, it is still my home and it is filled with love. I can't thank the Lord enough for this amazing temporary home. I live in this place we call home, but I know this is nothing compared to the amazing home I someday will live in. I long for this place and I long for all of my family and friends to be there with me!
I know there is a song out there that says something like wanting to go to Heaven but I don't wanna go now ( I think it is Kenney Chessney who sings it). I know a lot of people probably feel this way, but knowing the pain and suffering that occurs here during a persons life... I WANNA go now. I don't want to ever feel that pain or suffering. I want to see the streets of Gold, the Pearly Gate and most of all the Lord in his throne waiting on me and my family to join in the happiness that fills Heaven! I can only imagine what it truly looks and feels like and I am sure it is beyond any part of my imagination!!!!
I pray the Lord comes soon...
Friday, December 11, 2009
It all worked out
Yesterday was a wishy washy day for me! The morning was great and knowing we were having dinner at my moms was on my mind all day ( anxiously waiting to go to her house)! Then the afternoon hit...1:48pm to be exact!
This was the day I was expecting a phone call from Miss Spitfire's pediatrician for a referral appointment to St.Vincents. Well I hadn't heard anything before their lunch time, so I decided to call them after their lunch hour. It was 1:48 when I called and I called 20x's and all I got was a busy signal so I was getting very upset. Finally I got through and was told they hadn't even made the call to St.V's yet. I was very upset because the nurse told me I wouldn't hear anything until Monday now. I got off the phone very disappointed, mad, sad and angry!
The nurse called me back to tell me we had insurance problems and I needed to call them myself. I was so worried and was thinking she won't be able to go to St.V's and we would have to go back to Riley. I really didn't want that to happen. So after a bunch of phone calls made to the insurance provider and Spitfires Doctor, I was determined to get her an appointment made if I had to do it myself!
Thank goodness the nurse called me back at 5:04pm to tell me she made an appointment and it is for Tuesday the 15th... I was like "as in 5 days" and she said yes! So we finally got the referral I was patiently waiting on all week! Praise the Lord!!
Please pray everything goes well and my baby handles all testing to the best of her ability! Pray we find the office on time and pray we get some relief for her.
Just to add...we had a wonderful dinner at my Moms!!!
This was the day I was expecting a phone call from Miss Spitfire's pediatrician for a referral appointment to St.Vincents. Well I hadn't heard anything before their lunch time, so I decided to call them after their lunch hour. It was 1:48 when I called and I called 20x's and all I got was a busy signal so I was getting very upset. Finally I got through and was told they hadn't even made the call to St.V's yet. I was very upset because the nurse told me I wouldn't hear anything until Monday now. I got off the phone very disappointed, mad, sad and angry!
The nurse called me back to tell me we had insurance problems and I needed to call them myself. I was so worried and was thinking she won't be able to go to St.V's and we would have to go back to Riley. I really didn't want that to happen. So after a bunch of phone calls made to the insurance provider and Spitfires Doctor, I was determined to get her an appointment made if I had to do it myself!
Thank goodness the nurse called me back at 5:04pm to tell me she made an appointment and it is for Tuesday the 15th... I was like "as in 5 days" and she said yes! So we finally got the referral I was patiently waiting on all week! Praise the Lord!!
Please pray everything goes well and my baby handles all testing to the best of her ability! Pray we find the office on time and pray we get some relief for her.
Just to add...we had a wonderful dinner at my Moms!!!
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Another Referral
Monday was Miss Spitfire's check up with her Doctor. We covered all of my issues and she has decided to send us to St.Vincent's Childrens Hospital for further testing and hopefully treatment.
Almost a year ago we were referred to Riley. We of course went and they ran some tests and came to the conclusion that she was fine. Well a year later we are having the same issues, but now she gets fevers on top of the stomach pain. The fevers do not come every time her stomach hurts (heck if that was the case she would have to be home schooled), but they come too frequent.
I was so worried and stressed about going to her check up on Monday, but the day FINALLY came and I felt so calm. It was kind of weird. I was up all night the night before...well actually the whole 3 weeks of waiting. I made myself sick a couple of times with fear and lack of good sleep. I know the Lord was to blame for my calmness on Monday and I am so grateful for him. I also have such a good feeling about going to St.Vincents. I have heard such good stories about them and especially the gastroenterology team! I have talked to a couple of moms who have seen this team and there a very pleased with the doctors themselves and the results they have gotten for their children. I am praying we get the same results.
I am not sure of the appointment date yet. My doctor said she would call by Thursday to let me know a date. I am anxious to get in there and hopefully get some answers and relief for my little Spitfire! I am however not anxious one bit to take her in for all of the tests, she doesn't do well with needles at all... but who does right?!
I thank you everyone for all of the kind words, thoughts and prayers. Thank you for caring and being there for me during a difficult time of waiting. I ask that everyone please continue to pray for her!!!
Almost a year ago we were referred to Riley. We of course went and they ran some tests and came to the conclusion that she was fine. Well a year later we are having the same issues, but now she gets fevers on top of the stomach pain. The fevers do not come every time her stomach hurts (heck if that was the case she would have to be home schooled), but they come too frequent.
I was so worried and stressed about going to her check up on Monday, but the day FINALLY came and I felt so calm. It was kind of weird. I was up all night the night before...well actually the whole 3 weeks of waiting. I made myself sick a couple of times with fear and lack of good sleep. I know the Lord was to blame for my calmness on Monday and I am so grateful for him. I also have such a good feeling about going to St.Vincents. I have heard such good stories about them and especially the gastroenterology team! I have talked to a couple of moms who have seen this team and there a very pleased with the doctors themselves and the results they have gotten for their children. I am praying we get the same results.
I am not sure of the appointment date yet. My doctor said she would call by Thursday to let me know a date. I am anxious to get in there and hopefully get some answers and relief for my little Spitfire! I am however not anxious one bit to take her in for all of the tests, she doesn't do well with needles at all... but who does right?!
I thank you everyone for all of the kind words, thoughts and prayers. Thank you for caring and being there for me during a difficult time of waiting. I ask that everyone please continue to pray for her!!!
Monday, December 7, 2009
My favorite Christmas song ever
I love Josh Groban and who better to sing my absolute favorite Christmas Song. This song is what Christmas is truly all about!
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Dear Santa
Tonight I decided to help the kids write their letters to the one, the awesome and magical...Santa Claus! For my older girls this was the final draft to the other 20 letters they have been writing since Halloween! LOL :) (On a side note we will not be driving to the Circle this year to drop our letters off, we decided to take them Macy's because they are donating proceeds for every letter they recieve to Make a Wish Foundation! I am happy to hear their letters will be used for a good purpose this year!)
I usually say number your paper to 15 and usually they don't say a word, but this year my Angel and Spitfire were not happy about the limit. So I told them okay number it to whatever you want, but remember you will NOT get everything on your list. My Spitfire had a little bit of a rough time trying to come up with 19 items she came up with. Some of it is really goofy things just to fill in all of her numbers. My Angel on the other hand had 30, yes I just said ( well typed) 30 items. She did her 30 in the amount of time it took me to write out the little ones letters... 5 minutes!!!. She however had nothing goofy just to fill up space!! She is asking for things a teenage boy or girl would ask for... iPod, mini laptop, DSi, Wii games ( which is ok b/c we have one of the those), an add on to our house for her to have a pretend classroom filled with furniture that would be in a school. Really?!?!? Who thinks of this stuff at the ripe old age of 8, lol! Well needless to say I think Santa is going to bring her things a real 8 year old would want and need! LOL :)
Wild Man had a fun time telling me everything he wanted Santa to bring him. He listed everything he has been talking about for a month now! He really understands the story and magic behind Santa and I am thrilled! My in laws have a blow up Santa in their front yard and last night Wild Man walked out to see him when we left. He stood right in front of him and made sure no one was watching ( but of course I was), he looked up and in a whisper voice said, " Santa bring me toys please"! Awww it was so stinking cute! He loves every fake, blown up, toy and suited up Santa he sees! This year will be a fun, but maybe chaotic Christmas morning! J and I can't wait to see and share their joy!
Merry Christmas to everyone!
I usually say number your paper to 15 and usually they don't say a word, but this year my Angel and Spitfire were not happy about the limit. So I told them okay number it to whatever you want, but remember you will NOT get everything on your list. My Spitfire had a little bit of a rough time trying to come up with 19 items she came up with. Some of it is really goofy things just to fill in all of her numbers. My Angel on the other hand had 30, yes I just said ( well typed) 30 items. She did her 30 in the amount of time it took me to write out the little ones letters... 5 minutes!!!. She however had nothing goofy just to fill up space!! She is asking for things a teenage boy or girl would ask for... iPod, mini laptop, DSi, Wii games ( which is ok b/c we have one of the those), an add on to our house for her to have a pretend classroom filled with furniture that would be in a school. Really?!?!? Who thinks of this stuff at the ripe old age of 8, lol! Well needless to say I think Santa is going to bring her things a real 8 year old would want and need! LOL :)
Wild Man had a fun time telling me everything he wanted Santa to bring him. He listed everything he has been talking about for a month now! He really understands the story and magic behind Santa and I am thrilled! My in laws have a blow up Santa in their front yard and last night Wild Man walked out to see him when we left. He stood right in front of him and made sure no one was watching ( but of course I was), he looked up and in a whisper voice said, " Santa bring me toys please"! Awww it was so stinking cute! He loves every fake, blown up, toy and suited up Santa he sees! This year will be a fun, but maybe chaotic Christmas morning! J and I can't wait to see and share their joy!
Merry Christmas to everyone!
Thursday, December 3, 2009
He wants to be like his Dad!
My Wild Man is truly the funniest, cutest and wildest little boy in the world. If you know him, you know exactly what I am talking about!
My son loves his Dad more than anybody in the world!! They are soooo cute together and I love watching them interact! It usually gets loud, consist of wrestling and the words "Uncle"!!! Have you ever seen a 3 year old try to pin a 6ft man down... trust me it is quite the site!
Anyway, most of you know J works as a deputy and in Wild Man's eyes J is awesome and full of the coolest toys! He loves the badge, the radio, the duty belt and most definitely the handcuffs! I would say once a week Wild Man walks around in his underwear ( usually Cars or Thomas the Train, lol) and he attaches his walkie talkie to one side of his underwear and his play police badge on the other side. He also has this mini and I mean mini baton that goes with his badge that he carries around while dressed in his underwear as a Police Officer! He always yells, " MOM look, I look like my dad"! I always laugh b/c it is the funniest thing to see and I am so sorry I do not have a picture of this adorable little boy in his uniform, lol! I do promise that next time he does this I will snap a pic for all to see!
I happened to pull out all of the gloves, scarves and hats this week since it is now freezing in the mornings! I found J's deputy toboggan in the pile and asked Wild Man if he would like to wear it when we take the girls to school and of course he said YEAH! He put this grown mans hat on and it almost covers his eyes and is definitely itchy but ya know what he could care less. As soon as he put it on he started laughing hysterically and he could barely get the words out but he said, MOM look, I look like my Dad! I said,"yes you do handsome boy" and faster than I could get that sentence out of my mouth my little boy dressed in his feeted jammies with Spiderman slippers on over that, his coat on and his Dad's awesome hat... he was out the door and ready to take the girls to school!
My son loves his Dad more than anybody in the world!! They are soooo cute together and I love watching them interact! It usually gets loud, consist of wrestling and the words "Uncle"!!! Have you ever seen a 3 year old try to pin a 6ft man down... trust me it is quite the site!
Anyway, most of you know J works as a deputy and in Wild Man's eyes J is awesome and full of the coolest toys! He loves the badge, the radio, the duty belt and most definitely the handcuffs! I would say once a week Wild Man walks around in his underwear ( usually Cars or Thomas the Train, lol) and he attaches his walkie talkie to one side of his underwear and his play police badge on the other side. He also has this mini and I mean mini baton that goes with his badge that he carries around while dressed in his underwear as a Police Officer! He always yells, " MOM look, I look like my dad"! I always laugh b/c it is the funniest thing to see and I am so sorry I do not have a picture of this adorable little boy in his uniform, lol! I do promise that next time he does this I will snap a pic for all to see!
I happened to pull out all of the gloves, scarves and hats this week since it is now freezing in the mornings! I found J's deputy toboggan in the pile and asked Wild Man if he would like to wear it when we take the girls to school and of course he said YEAH! He put this grown mans hat on and it almost covers his eyes and is definitely itchy but ya know what he could care less. As soon as he put it on he started laughing hysterically and he could barely get the words out but he said, MOM look, I look like my Dad! I said,"yes you do handsome boy" and faster than I could get that sentence out of my mouth my little boy dressed in his feeted jammies with Spiderman slippers on over that, his coat on and his Dad's awesome hat... he was out the door and ready to take the girls to school!
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
As the day draws closer
I am scared.
Monday... the dreaded day. Miss Spitfire's follow up to see what we should do next. As I sit here typing away my stomach is in knots!
This is something that never leaves my mind. I am always thinking about it, always asking God to carry my fears for me, always asking God to help me see the Glory in all of this. He knows I am trying to give him all of the control of my life and my family, but he also knows I play this tug of war game daily. I hate that I do this, I want to give it all to him and I just can't? What is stopping me from this? The answer is...ME! I want the control over my children and in reality they are his, not mine! He has known I would struggle with this, he has known my daughter would be sick long before I ever had her. Although I struggle and I am sinning by doing this... I have faith in him and his plan!
I would like to ad and thank my dearest friend ( you know who you are) for being there for me during all of this. Thank you for caring and offering all of your kind words and your time. You have helped me through this awful waiting period more than you know. You have turned my frown upside down many of times in the past week or so. You are very loved by myself and my family and to you I give thanks!
I ask all of you to please continue to pray for my baby girl!
Monday... the dreaded day. Miss Spitfire's follow up to see what we should do next. As I sit here typing away my stomach is in knots!
This is something that never leaves my mind. I am always thinking about it, always asking God to carry my fears for me, always asking God to help me see the Glory in all of this. He knows I am trying to give him all of the control of my life and my family, but he also knows I play this tug of war game daily. I hate that I do this, I want to give it all to him and I just can't? What is stopping me from this? The answer is...ME! I want the control over my children and in reality they are his, not mine! He has known I would struggle with this, he has known my daughter would be sick long before I ever had her. Although I struggle and I am sinning by doing this... I have faith in him and his plan!
I would like to ad and thank my dearest friend ( you know who you are) for being there for me during all of this. Thank you for caring and offering all of your kind words and your time. You have helped me through this awful waiting period more than you know. You have turned my frown upside down many of times in the past week or so. You are very loved by myself and my family and to you I give thanks!
I ask all of you to please continue to pray for my baby girl!
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Thanksgiving, McGaha Style!
Thanksgiving is without a doubt always fun and usually crazy...this year was no exception!!!
This year was extra special as we had the whole family together. It was so fun to see all of the kids running around and playing. They all got along very well for the length of time we were all together... 9 1/2 hours! It was also fun to have Uncle D and Steph and their family show up for dinner as well! My heart was warm all day. It is so wonderful to be surrounded by loving family for an entire day while eating the most delicious food all day long ;)
The day however wasn't all giggles and laughs. Within the first hour I was awarded the "worst mother of the year award". My sweet Sunshine was sitting in the front room at the dining room table coloring with all of the other kids (which she has done a million times before) well of course out of all days, the chair fell back and my sweet baby was upside down hanging from the chair. I ran in to her crying, but it was not a horrific pain cry... it was her mad cry. It lasted all of 2 minutes! I was holding her when I realized she was bleeding from her mouth so I said, " oh gosh she busted her lip". I took her upstairs to wash her mouth out with a rag... when we all discovered my sweet baby was missing a tooth!!! She knocked out a bottom side tooth! I was almost in tears and very upset that my daughter will be missing this tooth until she is about 8 or 9 years old! Luckily though it is a side tooth and on the bottom. My sister in law found her tooth and oh my gosh it was the whole tooth, root and all. She did not chip, crack or break the tooth. It came out all in one piece... it was the longest tooth I have ever seen! We cleaned her up and went downstairs to eat. She had no problem eating and drinking. She acted like nothing happened, thank goodness! She was a trooper through what I thought was a traumatic event!
The rest of the day was full of eating, playing euchre, going through ads, football, lots of talking and of course more eating!!!! The day all in all was FABULOUS!!!! I love my life and my family!
This year was extra special as we had the whole family together. It was so fun to see all of the kids running around and playing. They all got along very well for the length of time we were all together... 9 1/2 hours! It was also fun to have Uncle D and Steph and their family show up for dinner as well! My heart was warm all day. It is so wonderful to be surrounded by loving family for an entire day while eating the most delicious food all day long ;)
The day however wasn't all giggles and laughs. Within the first hour I was awarded the "worst mother of the year award". My sweet Sunshine was sitting in the front room at the dining room table coloring with all of the other kids (which she has done a million times before) well of course out of all days, the chair fell back and my sweet baby was upside down hanging from the chair. I ran in to her crying, but it was not a horrific pain cry... it was her mad cry. It lasted all of 2 minutes! I was holding her when I realized she was bleeding from her mouth so I said, " oh gosh she busted her lip". I took her upstairs to wash her mouth out with a rag... when we all discovered my sweet baby was missing a tooth!!! She knocked out a bottom side tooth! I was almost in tears and very upset that my daughter will be missing this tooth until she is about 8 or 9 years old! Luckily though it is a side tooth and on the bottom. My sister in law found her tooth and oh my gosh it was the whole tooth, root and all. She did not chip, crack or break the tooth. It came out all in one piece... it was the longest tooth I have ever seen! We cleaned her up and went downstairs to eat. She had no problem eating and drinking. She acted like nothing happened, thank goodness! She was a trooper through what I thought was a traumatic event!
The rest of the day was full of eating, playing euchre, going through ads, football, lots of talking and of course more eating!!!! The day all in all was FABULOUS!!!! I love my life and my family!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
So Many
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I can't stop thinking about everything and everyone I am thankful for. I wanted to list everyone and say a little something with it, but then I realized it would be the longest blog in the history of blogs. So instead, I am sending out a BIG thanks to all of my family and my dearest of friends.
I am always stating how crazy my wonderful life is, but without everyone that is in my life I wouldn't be who I am. All of you have shaped me into me in some way. They have all been there when I need a shoulder, a laugh, a scripture, a pick me up, to vent, a hug, an adult conversation... anything! I love everyone in my life and I think I am so blessed to know and receive the love from each and everyone of you! You all know who are and tonight I am giving you thanks!
I wish everyone a Happy and Safe Thanksgiving!
I am always stating how crazy my wonderful life is, but without everyone that is in my life I wouldn't be who I am. All of you have shaped me into me in some way. They have all been there when I need a shoulder, a laugh, a scripture, a pick me up, to vent, a hug, an adult conversation... anything! I love everyone in my life and I think I am so blessed to know and receive the love from each and everyone of you! You all know who are and tonight I am giving you thanks!
I wish everyone a Happy and Safe Thanksgiving!
Monday, November 23, 2009
A lost thought
I like to think of myself as a good mother. I strive very hard to be the mother I always thought I would be. I want to be that Mom who is nurturing, loving, patient, respected, strong, in charge and seen through my kids' eyes as a great Mom.
As most of you know my house is NEVER clean. It is a daily battle that I fight... I am done fighting, my white flag is flying for all to see. I surrender! This is not me saying I give up on cleanliness, this is me saying I am done making my kids clean every time I turn around. What kind of memory is that creating, well not a good one let me tell ya!
Like I said before I thought I was a good Mom, yesterday my kids said otherwise. My kids are 8,6,3 and 1. They are not old enough to hate me yet, but they are young enough to soak these images in their little brains like a sponge and likely to bring them up 20 years from now to tell me how awful I was. I don't want that! I don't want to be that Mom who does nothing but nags!
My beautiful little Spitfire has been drawing me pictures lately and in them they always say, "Mom you are the best mom ever. I love you so so so so so much... you can be a littel rough sometimes, but I love you!" Ugh, knife in the heart, tears in the eye balls, you name it I feet it everytime I read it. Every thought crosses my mind when I read that awful sentence.
What am I doing so wrong that my 6 year old needs to tell me everyday that I am rough? I don't really spank or do time outs (unlessit is truly necessary and even then they are never fased by my hand to the butt swat), so I am not sure what she is really talking about. Maybe my yelling when everyone refuses to listen to me, when I cleaned the whole house and 10 minutes later it looks like I did nothing,when the kids are fighting and I refuse to take sides b/c I didn't see the whole fight or hear the entire argument, when they are being too rough on the dog and I yell she is going to bite you, when I say don't talk to me like that b/c my kids think they are older than what they are? What is it????
When I hear my kids say these things, like I am mean. I get kind of shocked. I am the one person I feel my kids can come to and tell me everything! I always think before I say or do anything. I truly think about what they are telling me and what the correct answer or punishment should be so they will always trust me. I try to be fun and hip, but at the same time their disciplinary. I try to make sure my kids get to see and do everything I think will shape them into the person they are and help make memories along the way. I try and I wish they knew how much I try. All they see is how rough I am, never any of the good... only the bad. Will they later in life see how hard I tried or will they only remember the nagging and chores I ask them to do?! Parenting is truly so difficult. I love it and wouldn't change a thing in my life but I wish there was someone out there to tell you what to do in every difficult situation as a parent!
I know this is all so petty compared to the struggles I will deal with as they all get into high school ,but until then I would like to think this is as bad as it is going to get, LOL!
I think my patience is the key to this post. I need more patience and I know that. I pray for patience to deal with all things great and small everyday.
I just want everyone to know,including my babies... that as a mother, I really try! I try to make life for my children a life of happiness, filled with love, fun memories, respect, honesty and trust! I will fail sometimes, but as long as I know they will be right there to forgive me and help pick me up from the bottomless pit in which parents who are "rough" goes...I will be just fine!
As most of you know my house is NEVER clean. It is a daily battle that I fight... I am done fighting, my white flag is flying for all to see. I surrender! This is not me saying I give up on cleanliness, this is me saying I am done making my kids clean every time I turn around. What kind of memory is that creating, well not a good one let me tell ya!
Like I said before I thought I was a good Mom, yesterday my kids said otherwise. My kids are 8,6,3 and 1. They are not old enough to hate me yet, but they are young enough to soak these images in their little brains like a sponge and likely to bring them up 20 years from now to tell me how awful I was. I don't want that! I don't want to be that Mom who does nothing but nags!
My beautiful little Spitfire has been drawing me pictures lately and in them they always say, "Mom you are the best mom ever. I love you so so so so so much... you can be a littel rough sometimes, but I love you!" Ugh, knife in the heart, tears in the eye balls, you name it I feet it everytime I read it. Every thought crosses my mind when I read that awful sentence.
What am I doing so wrong that my 6 year old needs to tell me everyday that I am rough? I don't really spank or do time outs (unlessit is truly necessary and even then they are never fased by my hand to the butt swat), so I am not sure what she is really talking about. Maybe my yelling when everyone refuses to listen to me, when I cleaned the whole house and 10 minutes later it looks like I did nothing,when the kids are fighting and I refuse to take sides b/c I didn't see the whole fight or hear the entire argument, when they are being too rough on the dog and I yell she is going to bite you, when I say don't talk to me like that b/c my kids think they are older than what they are? What is it????
When I hear my kids say these things, like I am mean. I get kind of shocked. I am the one person I feel my kids can come to and tell me everything! I always think before I say or do anything. I truly think about what they are telling me and what the correct answer or punishment should be so they will always trust me. I try to be fun and hip, but at the same time their disciplinary. I try to make sure my kids get to see and do everything I think will shape them into the person they are and help make memories along the way. I try and I wish they knew how much I try. All they see is how rough I am, never any of the good... only the bad. Will they later in life see how hard I tried or will they only remember the nagging and chores I ask them to do?! Parenting is truly so difficult. I love it and wouldn't change a thing in my life but I wish there was someone out there to tell you what to do in every difficult situation as a parent!
I know this is all so petty compared to the struggles I will deal with as they all get into high school ,but until then I would like to think this is as bad as it is going to get, LOL!
I think my patience is the key to this post. I need more patience and I know that. I pray for patience to deal with all things great and small everyday.
I just want everyone to know,including my babies... that as a mother, I really try! I try to make life for my children a life of happiness, filled with love, fun memories, respect, honesty and trust! I will fail sometimes, but as long as I know they will be right there to forgive me and help pick me up from the bottomless pit in which parents who are "rough" goes...I will be just fine!
Saturday, November 21, 2009
My sweet baby
is not all that sweet! LOL :)
My sunshine is growing like a little weed, not only in height, but intellectually as well. She is now 20 months and she thinks she is one of the big kids! She tries her hardest to keep up with her brother and most of the time she does, but sometimes she stumbles and boy does she get MAD! She is absolutely beautiful... light brown hair... shoulder length, big greenish brown eyes, rubber band rolls on her thighs, a cute little belly and a smile that can melt your heart! She is truly a wonderful baby!!
She has (for quite sometime now) developed a little attitude. Most people love it... including me! She can be so loving one minute and the next she is throwing herself on the ground and telling me I am mean. I know it doesn't sound so cute, but I promise when the tantrum is over... it is!
She is also my little dare devil. I just want to add I have never had to deal with these dare devilish ways with any of my other babies. She is not afraid to climb on to the computer table and jump the 3ft to the couch ( a big NO, NO)!! She is not afraid to climb up the latter to sit on her sister's top bunk of the bunk beds ( another big NO,NO)! She is not afraid to stick up for herself when Wild Man is picking on her. She will retaliate with no hesitation. She falls almost everyday 15X's a day just running around, haha!!!
She is a little sneaky too! She will run off with my phone, the remote, anything she is not aloud to play with and hide! She normally runs into the playhouse that is in our living room and sits on whatever she has until I find her! She then fights with me (with the craziest baby strength) trying not to let me have it! She calls the phone, " my hewoah" and it is adorable! She sneaks off to go poop as well. It is so funny she will stand in the corner of a room that is empty, do her business and then come out as if nothing ever happened! TMI!? Oh well, she is 20 months, LOL!!!
My baby girl no matter how rotten will always be my baby. She is a hilarious, very smart, sneaky, beautiful, mean, but sweet baby! I love everything about her, tantrums and all!! LOL :)
Sunshine, you are at a wonderful age that I adore. You keep me on my toes, but laughing at the same time. You are the greatest completion to our family! I love you!
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
How did we do it?
She is so smart, kind hearted, respectful, loving, emotional and beautiful!
Today she brought home her mid-term and she has made straight A's. She brought her one B up to an A-! I was talking to a teacher yesterday outside in the car rider line and the teacher couldn't stop talking about how wonderful she was and how much she loved her...
MY Angel!
She is loved by everyone. She spreads this certain kind of love and spirit around everywhere she goes. She sees everyone as her friend or relative! She never judges anyone. She is so helpful to anyone who wants or needs help. She is a pet lover and all pets love her! She is so innocent, but yet so grown up for such a young age. She is all girl and loves everything that has to do with being a girl. She has shown me this year how much she has grown. She is that girl who won't leave the house without a cute pair of earrings on. She knows what she wants to wear and she could careless if her shoes match or not. She likes what she likes and I love that about her!
She hates anything sports related. She has tried them all and hated every minute of it. She is the girl who would rather go to the book store and get 5 books and sit on the couch and read every page of each book. She enjoys writing, doing crafts, riding her bike and playing school. She enjoys life and I thoroughly love watching her live it!
So to my question "how did we do it?". How did J and I produce such an amazing child?! We are two very good people so please don't get me wrong. The thing is, is that we were both terrible kids who happened to hate school and she is just SO the opposite! She is a fabulous role model for all of her younger siblings! I just want her to know ( and yes I told her) how proud she makes me to be her Mom! I love you!!!!!
My goal for all of my children is for each one of them to be happy and live the life God intended for them. Welcoming challenges, overcoming adversity, reaching for the stars no matter how far they might be, for them to be true to themselves and see how special they really are. My number one goal in my life is to make sure each one of my kids knows how much I love them and how wonderful they make my life... no matter how crazy this life is!
Today she brought home her mid-term and she has made straight A's. She brought her one B up to an A-! I was talking to a teacher yesterday outside in the car rider line and the teacher couldn't stop talking about how wonderful she was and how much she loved her...
MY Angel!
She is loved by everyone. She spreads this certain kind of love and spirit around everywhere she goes. She sees everyone as her friend or relative! She never judges anyone. She is so helpful to anyone who wants or needs help. She is a pet lover and all pets love her! She is so innocent, but yet so grown up for such a young age. She is all girl and loves everything that has to do with being a girl. She has shown me this year how much she has grown. She is that girl who won't leave the house without a cute pair of earrings on. She knows what she wants to wear and she could careless if her shoes match or not. She likes what she likes and I love that about her!
She hates anything sports related. She has tried them all and hated every minute of it. She is the girl who would rather go to the book store and get 5 books and sit on the couch and read every page of each book. She enjoys writing, doing crafts, riding her bike and playing school. She enjoys life and I thoroughly love watching her live it!
So to my question "how did we do it?". How did J and I produce such an amazing child?! We are two very good people so please don't get me wrong. The thing is, is that we were both terrible kids who happened to hate school and she is just SO the opposite! She is a fabulous role model for all of her younger siblings! I just want her to know ( and yes I told her) how proud she makes me to be her Mom! I love you!!!!!
My goal for all of my children is for each one of them to be happy and live the life God intended for them. Welcoming challenges, overcoming adversity, reaching for the stars no matter how far they might be, for them to be true to themselves and see how special they really are. My number one goal in my life is to make sure each one of my kids knows how much I love them and how wonderful they make my life... no matter how crazy this life is!
Monday, November 16, 2009
My Little Spitfire
She needs some prayers...
My little spitfire is a fun and spunky little 6 year old, but right now she has the wind knocked out of her sails, so to speak. She is my runner, my energizer bunny, always smiling, always laughing, she is full of love and life.
Since the beginning of summer she has been sick often. It always comes in the form of a fever. Sometimes it is just an upset stomach that wipes the smile right off of her face. It wilts my little flower. She is out of energy, out of smiles and out of laughter when the sicknesses hit her ( as it would anyone), but she is 6! She has always been my sickly child and that started when she was 3 weeks old. She had RSV and sleep apnea as a very little infant. Every time someone is sick, it is without a doubt that she will get whatever it is and 10X's worse than anyone else. Again all of our kids had H1N1, well all of our kiddos were better within 3-5 days. My poor spitfire had it for 8 days.
She is sick now. She has been fighting an upset stomach and fever for 4 days. The fever faded quickly, but her stomach is tear jerking pain. All she does is sleep. I took her to the pediatrician today and she didn't have all of her medical records so I am to get those faxed over tomorrow. While we were there the Dr. checked her for all common reasons to go to the doctor... ears, throat, strep throat, flu and even mono. She was negative on everything which is great news, but yet bad news. The doctor made me schedule another appointment to see her in 2 weeks. She needs time to get and look over all of her medical history and she said we will go from there. I might ad that every time my poor spitfire is sick no one else gets what she has. It is never contagious and that raises red flags to me and her Dr.
So as I sit here at a loss on what could possibly be wrong with my baby girl, I ask you to please pray for her. Pray for healing, pray for answers, pray for her immune system to stay strong and continue fighting, pray for her energy level to raise, pray for her to be able to go to school tomorrow. He hears all of us and the more people praying for specific requests the better.
God is listening so please pray...
My little spitfire is a fun and spunky little 6 year old, but right now she has the wind knocked out of her sails, so to speak. She is my runner, my energizer bunny, always smiling, always laughing, she is full of love and life.
Since the beginning of summer she has been sick often. It always comes in the form of a fever. Sometimes it is just an upset stomach that wipes the smile right off of her face. It wilts my little flower. She is out of energy, out of smiles and out of laughter when the sicknesses hit her ( as it would anyone), but she is 6! She has always been my sickly child and that started when she was 3 weeks old. She had RSV and sleep apnea as a very little infant. Every time someone is sick, it is without a doubt that she will get whatever it is and 10X's worse than anyone else. Again all of our kids had H1N1, well all of our kiddos were better within 3-5 days. My poor spitfire had it for 8 days.
She is sick now. She has been fighting an upset stomach and fever for 4 days. The fever faded quickly, but her stomach is tear jerking pain. All she does is sleep. I took her to the pediatrician today and she didn't have all of her medical records so I am to get those faxed over tomorrow. While we were there the Dr. checked her for all common reasons to go to the doctor... ears, throat, strep throat, flu and even mono. She was negative on everything which is great news, but yet bad news. The doctor made me schedule another appointment to see her in 2 weeks. She needs time to get and look over all of her medical history and she said we will go from there. I might ad that every time my poor spitfire is sick no one else gets what she has. It is never contagious and that raises red flags to me and her Dr.
So as I sit here at a loss on what could possibly be wrong with my baby girl, I ask you to please pray for her. Pray for healing, pray for answers, pray for her immune system to stay strong and continue fighting, pray for her energy level to raise, pray for her to be able to go to school tomorrow. He hears all of us and the more people praying for specific requests the better.
God is listening so please pray...
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Counting Down
I am counting down to my favorite Holiday... Thanksgiving!
Most people say Christmas is their favorite Holiday. I love Christmas too, but not like I love Thanksgiving. I enjoy waking up Thanksgiving morning getting the kids dressed and packed for the entire day. I know that when we leave our house that morning we won't be home until bedtime.
We head over to my in laws, my kids run around and play and us adults chat and get ready for the food to finish cooking! We all eat and it is fabulous. I of course have 3 different plates because I can't let any of my food touch or take the chance of juice from one food running into another... it is quite the challenge to get 3 plates and a drink to one seat, lol!!! Anyway, we always have all of my favorites and my father in law always makes me a pumpkin pie and sometimes my pineapple upside down cake, it is truly heavenly!
After our tummies are so full that we are all going to explode, we bust out my favorite part, the ads! I love going through all of the ads with everyone. We all circle what we want, from where. I always have a tablet and pen to write down who wants want, how much it is and what store it will be at. Some years I pack up the kiddos and we head out to my step dad's family's house to see my Mom and visit with a family who welcomes us with open arms! It is always a fun time over there and of course more food!!! After a couple of hours over there we head back to my in-laws where I then proceed to make my favorite list of all...My BLACK FRIDAY list!
Black Friday is most definitely my favorite day of the year! I enjoy everything about that day! I love the fact that J loves shopping with me that day. It is a day for just us! I love that you hear nothing but Christmas music on the radio, sitting in traffic, but for a fun reason! I love walking into a store knowing I need to be somewhere and looking around to see everyone has the same objective that we do. People galore, Christmas music playing in all stores, employees coming over the intercom announcing what is where and what is on sale. Everyone rushing from store to store trying to beat the early bird sales, that are always fabulous! You name it I love it, this day is fabulous!!!!
Let the countdown begin...
12 more days!!!!! Woo Hoo!
Most people say Christmas is their favorite Holiday. I love Christmas too, but not like I love Thanksgiving. I enjoy waking up Thanksgiving morning getting the kids dressed and packed for the entire day. I know that when we leave our house that morning we won't be home until bedtime.
We head over to my in laws, my kids run around and play and us adults chat and get ready for the food to finish cooking! We all eat and it is fabulous. I of course have 3 different plates because I can't let any of my food touch or take the chance of juice from one food running into another... it is quite the challenge to get 3 plates and a drink to one seat, lol!!! Anyway, we always have all of my favorites and my father in law always makes me a pumpkin pie and sometimes my pineapple upside down cake, it is truly heavenly!
After our tummies are so full that we are all going to explode, we bust out my favorite part, the ads! I love going through all of the ads with everyone. We all circle what we want, from where. I always have a tablet and pen to write down who wants want, how much it is and what store it will be at. Some years I pack up the kiddos and we head out to my step dad's family's house to see my Mom and visit with a family who welcomes us with open arms! It is always a fun time over there and of course more food!!! After a couple of hours over there we head back to my in-laws where I then proceed to make my favorite list of all...My BLACK FRIDAY list!
Black Friday is most definitely my favorite day of the year! I enjoy everything about that day! I love the fact that J loves shopping with me that day. It is a day for just us! I love that you hear nothing but Christmas music on the radio, sitting in traffic, but for a fun reason! I love walking into a store knowing I need to be somewhere and looking around to see everyone has the same objective that we do. People galore, Christmas music playing in all stores, employees coming over the intercom announcing what is where and what is on sale. Everyone rushing from store to store trying to beat the early bird sales, that are always fabulous! You name it I love it, this day is fabulous!!!!
Let the countdown begin...
12 more days!!!!! Woo Hoo!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
The sap that I am
For anyone who knows me, knows I can cry at the drop of a hat. Last Night was no exception!
J and I decided we would go out to dinner as a family. Well of course no one could decide what they wanted so we decided to go to the Mall. We figured we could all eat something different and then do a little window shopping!
We had dinner and of course it was just as crazy as you would think a family of 6 with 4 kids all under the ages of 8 would be. The people all around us were probably thrilled when we were done :). Dinner with my family is always an adventure!
Anyway, we decided to go walking around. As we were walking around we realized everyone had their Christmas decor up and working! I was kind of shocked ( why I don't know, they do it every year) that everything was up and out already. We haven't even had Thanksgiving yet. So we are walking, la di da... and Wild Man sees stickers on the floor and of course they are stickers with Santa's face and arrows pointing to his set.
Let me go back a week and tell you my sons excitement to know Santa comes to the Mall every year. He sees toys and games on TV and of course wants everything. He not only says he wants it, he yells at the top of his lungs, jumps up and down and says "Mom you hab to see dis"! It is a hoot and I LOVE it. So I tell him "hey buddy in a month Santa will be at the Mall and we can go see him and tell him all of the fun stuff you want"! He obviously has no concept of time and took that has lets get dressed and go! He put his clothes on faster than he ever has and brought me his jacket. I was so sad to tell him it will be a long time before Santa comes, I then apologized 100X's!
So back to last night... he sees the stickers. My bright idea was to follow the stickers (FYI, he is no longer by Von Maur) down past Vicotoria Secret and Gymboree. I kept saying to everyone I just want show Wild Man where Santa is going to be when he comes. Usually this is not until AFTER Thanksgiving, well this year they have him here SUPER early. He was there, talking to children. I almost died seeing him there, I wasn't prepared for him to be there. I thought they have him come on Black Friday or the Saturday after. So we are continuing to walk by, I say look buddy he is here. His eyes grew bigger than I have ever seen them before, he couldn't make his smile any bigger. Then this when the tears started building up. I didn't want anyone to see me crying over the fact that my son was seeing this Magical guy who will be bringing him great toys! He was so anxious to see and express his love for EVERY toy on T.V and in magazines. So I look away for a second for the tears to suck back into the ducts they came out of and we walk over to the side where Wild Man can have a great look at Santa. He looked at me with such excitment and shock that this was the moment... one tear rolled down my cheek. I couldn't stop saying I can't believe he is here already. So I look at J and ask him if it is ok to let him in and just talk to him ( NO pictures yet, too early). I wouldn't have even asked due to it being so early, but with my Wild Man getting dressed and handing me his jacket last week... I had to let him. So I ask him" do you want to go see him and tell him about your Dragon Castle"? He of course says "yes", so I proceed to get him out of the stroller and he freaked out. He wanted to go see Santa, but not sit on his lap or even get too close. He started crying and wanted to go home. We then get him back in the stroller and head back the way we came, lol :) The funniest thing of it all was when my Wild Man said, " Mom will you buy my Dragon Castle?". He no longer wanted anything to do with Santa!. I again filled with tears just because he is such a handsome and funny boy!
J and I decided we would go out to dinner as a family. Well of course no one could decide what they wanted so we decided to go to the Mall. We figured we could all eat something different and then do a little window shopping!
We had dinner and of course it was just as crazy as you would think a family of 6 with 4 kids all under the ages of 8 would be. The people all around us were probably thrilled when we were done :). Dinner with my family is always an adventure!
Anyway, we decided to go walking around. As we were walking around we realized everyone had their Christmas decor up and working! I was kind of shocked ( why I don't know, they do it every year) that everything was up and out already. We haven't even had Thanksgiving yet. So we are walking, la di da... and Wild Man sees stickers on the floor and of course they are stickers with Santa's face and arrows pointing to his set.
Let me go back a week and tell you my sons excitement to know Santa comes to the Mall every year. He sees toys and games on TV and of course wants everything. He not only says he wants it, he yells at the top of his lungs, jumps up and down and says "Mom you hab to see dis"! It is a hoot and I LOVE it. So I tell him "hey buddy in a month Santa will be at the Mall and we can go see him and tell him all of the fun stuff you want"! He obviously has no concept of time and took that has lets get dressed and go! He put his clothes on faster than he ever has and brought me his jacket. I was so sad to tell him it will be a long time before Santa comes, I then apologized 100X's!
So back to last night... he sees the stickers. My bright idea was to follow the stickers (FYI, he is no longer by Von Maur) down past Vicotoria Secret and Gymboree. I kept saying to everyone I just want show Wild Man where Santa is going to be when he comes. Usually this is not until AFTER Thanksgiving, well this year they have him here SUPER early. He was there, talking to children. I almost died seeing him there, I wasn't prepared for him to be there. I thought they have him come on Black Friday or the Saturday after. So we are continuing to walk by, I say look buddy he is here. His eyes grew bigger than I have ever seen them before, he couldn't make his smile any bigger. Then this when the tears started building up. I didn't want anyone to see me crying over the fact that my son was seeing this Magical guy who will be bringing him great toys! He was so anxious to see and express his love for EVERY toy on T.V and in magazines. So I look away for a second for the tears to suck back into the ducts they came out of and we walk over to the side where Wild Man can have a great look at Santa. He looked at me with such excitment and shock that this was the moment... one tear rolled down my cheek. I couldn't stop saying I can't believe he is here already. So I look at J and ask him if it is ok to let him in and just talk to him ( NO pictures yet, too early). I wouldn't have even asked due to it being so early, but with my Wild Man getting dressed and handing me his jacket last week... I had to let him. So I ask him" do you want to go see him and tell him about your Dragon Castle"? He of course says "yes", so I proceed to get him out of the stroller and he freaked out. He wanted to go see Santa, but not sit on his lap or even get too close. He started crying and wanted to go home. We then get him back in the stroller and head back the way we came, lol :) The funniest thing of it all was when my Wild Man said, " Mom will you buy my Dragon Castle?". He no longer wanted anything to do with Santa!. I again filled with tears just because he is such a handsome and funny boy!
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
A great evening
So last night my soon to be Sister in law, Nina, invited me over for a fun little party. I was so thrilled she even invited me. I was concerned however that I wouldn't be able to go, due to a sitter issue. J had to work part time and it was a school night ( normally we never get a sitter on a school night) but my wonderful brother offered to babysit so I could go. I was gone 2 and 1/2 hours. Home by 9pm to tuck the girls in :)
When my brother showed up I think I rambled for what felt like forever on the rules and schedule of the kids. I was telling him, when and what they ate, what they can and can't do, when bedtime is, how to lay the Baby down, etc. After I finally gave all my kisses and hugs...I left. As I pulled out of the driveway I was thinking can he really handle watching The Baby. He has taken the older kids out and I knew he could handle them, but he had never had to do anything with The Baby before, so I was worried! I made it to Nina's party and decided I was not going to let worry bother me, he has my number if he needs me. Lets just hope he doesn't... kinda feeling!
I mingled with a few of Nina's friends and I got to meet her mom as well. It was a nice girls night out! My brother called one time and asked a question and that was it. I left the party and headed home. J was home by the time I walked in, but most importantly my brother was still alive, lol :) The girls were going to bed, the baby was asleep and wild man was waiting on me. Everyone was good. My brother went home shortly there after. I went to talk to the girls and they could not stop talking about how fun Daniel was. He made them ice cream, played games with them and had a good time. They asked me when he can babysit again, of course my responce was anytime he wants too! I am so thankful for the relationship my kids and him share. It is something I hope they never loose. Great Uncle Daniel!!!
When my brother showed up I think I rambled for what felt like forever on the rules and schedule of the kids. I was telling him, when and what they ate, what they can and can't do, when bedtime is, how to lay the Baby down, etc. After I finally gave all my kisses and hugs...I left. As I pulled out of the driveway I was thinking can he really handle watching The Baby. He has taken the older kids out and I knew he could handle them, but he had never had to do anything with The Baby before, so I was worried! I made it to Nina's party and decided I was not going to let worry bother me, he has my number if he needs me. Lets just hope he doesn't... kinda feeling!
I mingled with a few of Nina's friends and I got to meet her mom as well. It was a nice girls night out! My brother called one time and asked a question and that was it. I left the party and headed home. J was home by the time I walked in, but most importantly my brother was still alive, lol :) The girls were going to bed, the baby was asleep and wild man was waiting on me. Everyone was good. My brother went home shortly there after. I went to talk to the girls and they could not stop talking about how fun Daniel was. He made them ice cream, played games with them and had a good time. They asked me when he can babysit again, of course my responce was anytime he wants too! I am so thankful for the relationship my kids and him share. It is something I hope they never loose. Great Uncle Daniel!!!
Monday, November 9, 2009
My reason
Today I woke up and decided to start a blog. Why you might ask. Well I live this crazy wonderful life and can't remember everything from everyday. I want to keep my thoughts, my reactions, my reasoning for things, my childrens achievements in a place that I will one day be able to come back to and read. I want to read what my thoughts were on my daughters 29th day of school. I want to read how J loved me at a certain time. I want to read it all, my life, my craziness that I deal with on a daily basis a year from now and say " oh wow what a great day, I can't believe we did that" kind of thing. I want to journal my life and feelings for when the Lord takes me home, my children and anyone else who cares can read how amazing, how crazy and how wonderful my life was. I do it all for my kids and anyone who knows me...knows this! To my 4 fabulous children, this is for you!
So here is to day 1 of my blogging experience :) *raises glass and takes a sip*
So here is to day 1 of my blogging experience :) *raises glass and takes a sip*
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