Growing Old

Today at church I realized I always sit behind the same couple. They seem so sweet and cute! They are an older couple, probably in their late 50's early 60's! Today during worship I really noticed them, they were praising and singing next to each other and although they never touched...I could sense their love for one another and their love for God! It was so touching and refreshing to see.

I come from a "broken home" ( although I absolutely hate that term, my home was not broken at all, my Dad and Mom just didn't stay married). I know so many people my age who come from divorced parents and who are divorced themselves. I want to say I think that their is absolutely nothing wrong with divorce, no one should live an unhappy life. With that said, I love to see old couples still together, married for 50+years, have kids and grandbabies! I hope to someday say J and I have been married for that long! I also hope to grow close to God as a married couple.

I know my personal relationship with God has grown and is so wonderful right now and I still have so much growing left to do! I just would like for us as a married couple to be able to study the Bible together,worship together, have versus to remember each week, possibly attend the couples retreat that is often offered at most churches and most definitely be able to attend church service together. J loves our Savior and has his own relationship with him. Although we don't talk about it a lot I think he knows more about scripture and the life of a Christian more than I do. So I want everyone to know he is a son of God and knows what it takes to walk with God! We sadly can't attend church service as a family due to J's work schedule. He works every single Sunday. He is always great about asking how it went as soon as I load the kids in the van when service is over and I usually tell him what the message was about. I know he wants to go and be with us in the house of the Lord, learning, praising and worshiping! I also know the Lord knows this as well. He knows I long for my family to be a family at church and he knows J wants to be there.

Back to my cute little couple, I found myself watching them all morning. I heard the message and I worshiped with all of my heart, but found myself watching them time and time again. How long have they been married? How did they get to the point of where they are as a couple with God? I kept saying to myself I bet there kids are here somewhere with their grandbabies in the nursery! I found myself wanting to be them in 35-40 years!

Every marriage has it's ups and downs! Every marriage has it's challenges and obsticles to overcome. J and I have had a sometimes bumpy road in the last 14 years we have been together, but today we are wonderful :) He warms my heart, puts a smile on my face, provides for our family and most of loves me for me and I know in my heart he truly loves me. That is such a wonderful feeling :) I know whatever turmoil comes our way we will overcome it and be together forever. We will be that old couple rocking in our rocking chairs on the porch watching the sun come up, lol...ok maybe not watching the sun come up, but you get what I am saying!!! We will grow old together and I know it. We have a love that is stronger than us, if that makes any sense to you! He is my rock and I like to believe I am his as well.

So to all of you out there who are still married to your first love, I toast to you...to another 50+ happy years together!

J, through the good, bad and ugly I love you with all of my heart!