My walk with Christ

I just kind of wanted to write this blog so I can watch my relationship grow with Christ! I think it will be cool to read this in a few months just to see how I have progressed in my relationship and just to see how he really works in my life on a daily basis!

I am so happy where my walk is right now. I have never had this feeling before and I have to say it is the best feeling I ever had! He showing and teaching me things daily and I am loving it. I would like to point out I am nowhere where I want to be in my walk, I would like to think that right now I am at the middle mile marker of a marathon taking a water break to catch my breath!

God has shown me so much since I have found my new church home at LifePoint Church. Pastor Jym preaches to me every Sunday and I love it. Not a lot of people can say they feel the sermon hit them directly each week and right now in this time in my life...I can say that! I feel God next to me everyday. I am still struggling to give up my cursing and God knows how hard I am trying, but with over 10 years of cursing like a sailor... well let's just say I need a filter for my brain and right now it only works 1/2 the time. I hate that this has been such an obstacle for me. As soon as an ugly word comes out of my mouth I immediately feel remorse, but sadly can't take it back. So I am working on this! I am also working on my daily Bible readings. I can't stay consistent with it at all and that frustrates me so much. I sometimes say to myself well if I am reading a Bible Verse off of Facebook or Indymoms that counts. Well I am here to say that I know without a doubt that this thinking is so wrong. I know I need to sit down and have devotional time to really read study God's word. Why is this so hard for me? I can spend hours on the computer looking at this or reading that, but finding time ( quiet time) to do this is so hard for me. Again I am working on this as well :)

I am so happy in my new found relationship with Jesus Christ. He has been apart of my life since J came home from Iraq, but not really apart of my life is that makes any sense?! It has been within the last year that I have been really seeking him and letting him in my heart and life completely. I have always believed in him and I have always prayed nightly, but that was it... nothing more and nothing less. I now find myself longing for him. I find myself putting him first in my life. I find him in the strangest part of my days. I find him loving me unconditionally and always there to forgive me, carry me or pull me through. I find myself worshipping and praying constantly. If it weren't for KLove ( a radio station 101.9) I don't know how my days would turn out. I look forward to leaving the house because I know I am going to worship and my kids are learning his word and ministries through this as well. I just can't praise him enough.

My life should be in shambles with all of the sad news I have received the past couple of months and it just doesn't feel that way. I have my hard days, but more than not they are good days thanks to MY God. He pulls me through it all and I have complete faith in him to do so :) He is amazing! His love and Grace are amazing. I find myself having more Grace since last weeks sermon at church and oh my word has it made a difference the past 2 days. I find myself forgiving people and things I would of thought I could careless about. I find myself loving so many people and being able to share that love openly with them. I could go on and on and on, but for now, I would just like to say he has me wrapped around his finger like a child would be with their parents. Honestly it is the best feeling!

I know I will be in heaven someday and I love knowing who I will be with, but I also get very sad with the thought of the people I will not be with. God is a very forgiving God and I just hope all of my friends and family who aren't in a relationship with God will open their hearts and minds to him. Repent and love him, you too will feel the happiness I feel and you too could walk in the paradise known as Heaven with Jesus and me someday.

As my cousin so wonderfully put it (if I have to bury anyone else close to me or should I go before my loved ones), "instead of saying bye I want to say, see you later"! Through Christ is the only way to eternity and the only way of saying "see you later"!

I ask anyone who stumbles upon this to pray for the members in my family who do not believe or have a relationship with Christ, to open their hearts to him. For the Lord to somehow work himself into their lives. I also ask that you please continue to pray for My cousin John, my Uncle John and our entire family during this time.