My new role

I am officially now a working Mom! I haven't really been able to say that in a really long time. I have been a stay at home Mom for what feels like an eternity and I loved-love it! I am currently only working nights, but it honestly feels weird.

It is a weird that no one can understand unless you have stayed at home with kids for years. I kind of hate to admit it, but I am loving my new job! I am working as a waitress at The Cheesecake Factory and to some that is a belittling job... to me it is perfect! Yes I would love to make the money of a lawyer or a nurse, but for me this job is exactly what I needed! I love interacting with other people, helping people, having such a flexible schedule that allows me to spend my everyday still at home with all 4 of my babies and work at night! The other half of my weird feeling is, I don't get to tuck my kids into bed every night. This is something I totally took for granted when I did it every night, heck sometimes I complained about it. It would be yelling "I don't want to go to bed", me waiting on each kid to hug and kiss miss Sunshine while I found her baby and blankie, making sure they were all in bed, covered up, hugged and kissed, this light on and this light off. Sometimes it would take 20 minutes or so. Now that I am not here most nights to do this, I miss it and feel bad for complaining about it or asking J to do it!

I realize with this new job how much of a difference it does and will make for my family! Of course it has it pro's and con's, but both big differences! I like having the adult conversations, I like making money, I don't like that I hardly see J on days that I work, I don't like that my kids whine when I tell them I have to work, I don't like seeing their sad faces when I leave, I don't like not being the last face they see when they go to sleep, but I know this is what needs to happen for my family!

This job has in a way really opened my eyes to how important my family is to me. Please don't misunderstand that, they were and always will be my number one priority. It just makes me see how blessed I am and how I want to do nothing, but make them all happy... especially J. I feel overjoyed that I have them and I know when I get off of work they will all be here ( asleep, but still here)! They love me and I love them! Family is so important and without each one of them I would be lost. They all have my heart and even when I am running crazy at work to serve other families and to make sure they are enjoying their evening... my family is always on my mind :) My time with them is way more valued and cherished! This job so far is such a blessing and I just hope it continues to go so well and remains beneficial!

Did I mention their Cheesecake is phenomenal?!

Well it is :)